Surprise! I'm back to blogging. 

I used to have a blog, way back when. I wrote about "adulting" (learning how to be a functional grown-up post-college...cringe), Target fashion, Netflix shows, and my drugstore makeup routine. Needless to say, it was a simpler time (both for me and for the Internet), and it was fun. 

Returning to the same blog four years later and hollowing it out to make room for all of the growing I've done between now and then feels kind of sacred— and kind of silly. But I am excited. 

How I arrived at this decision is also worth mentioning, so bear with me. 

I'm about 20 weeks pregnant, and I cry at least once a week over something adorable, something remotely sad, or something nostalgic.  This week it was all three. Since having my son and moving from California to Florida to Texas all within 8 months, I've of course given up (and gained!) a lot of things, but one of the most obvious things missing from my life has been photography & creativity. I look back at my OG Instagram and I see someone who created boldly and a lot, without waiting for things to be perfect. I shared much more of my daily imperfect life, and didn't wait for someone to book me as a photographer. 

Now as a soon-to-be mom of 2 with a full-time corporate career, professional photography bookings are few and far between, and recently my Instagram has no longer been a place for me to play but a place where I felt pressured into sharing polished half-truths to the world. 

I've really missed making beautiful things for myself. So I've decided to let go of that polished portfolio little and see what happens. I have decided to give myself permission to write blog posts and post pictures of my home life in between professional photographs, and not be so uptight about my feed. I've decided to change up a lot of little things that may seem silly but will make me so much happier overall. I think it's worth it.

I'm a creator at heart. Perhaps it's how I make sense of the world. I've been holding so many thoughts about all of the changes in my life and needing a place to translate them from the formless either into something beautiful.  I guess I finally got to a point where I felt like some of my thoughts were too big for Instagram's character limit. 

Regardless, welcome to my blog.